Not for u unless ur name is lain
Lain,
If you are reading this, I hope you take your time. I hope you breathe while reading it. I hope you let the words sit with you instead of rushing past them, because every sentence here exists for one reason and one reason only. You matter to me, and my love for you has never disappeared, not even for a moment.
I know our story has not been simple. Loving someone online comes with its own kind of weight. Distance can make silence feel louder. Time apart can make thoughts spiral. Fear can sneak in quietly and convince you that something beautiful is slowly slipping away even when it is not. I understand why you have been scared. I understand why you worried that I might lose love or grow distant or stop caring the way I once did. But I need you to know something clearly and without doubt. That fear was never reality.
My love for you has never faded. It has never weakened. It has never gone quiet in my heart.
Even when we broke up, even when we stepped away from each other, even when things felt uncertain or heavy, my feelings did not disappear. They stayed with me. I carried them with me through every day. You were still in my thoughts, still in my heart, still someone I cared deeply about even when we were not together. Distance did not erase you. Time did not lessen you. Fear did not replace you.
I never stopped choosing you in my heart.
I want you to understand that love does not always look loud or dramatic. Sometimes love looks like patience. Sometimes it looks like staying when it would be easier to walk away. Sometimes it looks like quietly holding space for someone while they are learning how to trust again. That is the kind of love I have for you. It is not rushed. It is not fragile. It is steady and real.
I love who you are. I love the way you think and feel so deeply. I love your softness and your strength. I love your vulnerability and even the parts of you that are scared, because those parts show how much you care. You are not broken for feeling afraid. You are human. And loving you means accepting every part of you, not just the easy ones.
You have never been a placeholder in my life. You have never been temporary. You have never been someone I was waiting to replace or grow tired of. You are someone I chose, someone I cared for genuinely, and someone who left a mark on my heart that did not disappear just because things became difficult.
When you worry that I am losing love, please remember this. Love does not vanish quietly when it is real. It does not slowly drain away without being felt. If my love were fading, I would feel that emptiness. I would notice the absence. But instead, what I feel is presence. I feel care. I feel attachment. I feel warmth when I think of you. That is not loss. That is love still alive.
I am not here because I feel obligated. I am not here because of habit or comfort or loneliness. I am here because I want to be. I am here because loving you feels right to me. I am here because even after everything, my heart still recognizes you as someone important.
You do not need to prove yourself to earn my love. You do not need to be fearless to deserve it. You do not need to be perfect for it to stay. All I ask is that you let yourself believe, even just a little, that my feelings are not as fragile as your fears tell you they are.
If doubt ever creeps back in, I want you to remember that this message exists. That I cared enough to write something long and honest and vulnerable and leave it somewhere you could always find it. I want you to remember that love can be steady even when emotions feel shaky. I want you to remember that I am not slowly slipping away from you.
I am still here.
I care about you deeply. I love you sincerely. And that love has not gone anywhere.
Always, Ghost <3
( This took me an hour I really hope you like it :] love u )